Not having the hope to eat.
Not having the hope to sleep.
Not having the hope to talk.
When you feel like no one really cares about you.
When you feel like you are alone.
And that everything's going wrong
No matter how hard you try
No matter what you try
You eventually mess up
Like the mess you are
You are scared of forming relationship
Talking to new people
The only thing that seems possible is to just survive somehow till you find the inevitable courage to do the inevitable.
Everything seems pointless.
Mere existence is pointless.
Everything is out of order.
You know you are not normal
But you don't know why
And why you can't be just normal
Just happy
Nothing works anymore.
Even love
Everything has failed.
Before you.
Everything.
Even love.
Just sad.
Cruelly.
Sad.