When you are a mess

What can one do when one is a mess?

There are two paths to follow. Stay in the mess and try to enjoy it. Else try to identify why one is a mess, and try to escape it. Both options are just fine and will produce different experiences.

Depression

Depression is not having the hope to breathe.

Not having the hope to eat.

Not having the hope to sleep.

Not having the hope to talk.

When you feel like no one really cares about you.

When you feel like you are alone.

And that everything's going wrong

No matter how hard you try

No matter what you try

You eventually mess up

Like the mess you are

You are scared of forming relationship

Talking to new people

The only thing that seems possible is to just survive somehow till you find the inevitable courage to do the inevitable.

Everything seems pointless.

Mere existence is pointless.

Everything is out of order.

You know you are not normal

But you don't know why

And why you can't be just normal

Just happy

Nothing works anymore.

Even love 

Everything has failed.

Before you.

Everything.

Even love.

Just sad.

Cruelly.

Sad.