I'm so hurt, lost and hopeless

I have to go pickup my brother.

It's my duty.

He has no one else.

I'm not feeling well enough.

I'll take the meds as doctor said.

Maybe things will improve.

Idk but I have to try it blindly.

What else to do?

If my mind is not able to find hope in this life without yoghurt, what else can I do to live?
Shouldn't I live? or Should I just give up?
My mental health is struggling and I don't even know why.
I just wish I never existed.

Restarting Yoghurt

My mind is going away from me without happiness

It's going like a kite without a string

I might have to restart yoghurt and see if I can find some happiness

No happiness that I can feel

I don't feel anything.

I feel numb.

Should I restart having eggs?

What's wrong with my stomach?

Really tired

I'm trying to not take the yoghurt and I'm very tired. 

I'm trying to eat eggs instead but I'm not sure if it's working. 

I wish God came and took me by his hand and ended this suffering for me. 

I'm tired.

I don't feel well

I don't feel that well. I don't know if it's the lack of fermented yoghurt or because of some stupid sibo or because of the gluten I had a week before. I hope i get better. I have lost hope.

Feeling terrible

Ever since I started having gluten, I have been having terrible. Yuck It almost hurts. But what can i do? There is no proof. I am just a bad human. There's no point in me trying anything.