Normal yoghurt/curd

My body finds it difficult to digest normal yoghurt and indian curd. Even with other food items, it's not a pleasant experience for my body. And it affects my mind too. Kills my joy and motivation.

I should stay away from those.

Gluten

Gluten is like a shock to my body
Both for my mind and body
My soul feels dry
Mind feels dead
Body feels strained

Yet my results are never positive enough

Happiness

When my heart is filled with love,
thanks to heavily fermented yogurt,
and the my work is blooming,
for which i have almost put
more than an year of my effort
it's joy in my heart.

It's beautiful to see your ideas working
especially since it's been long
since something real came out
from my works.

I hope this grows
Grows like a banyan tree
spreading joy, love, and peace
to everyone around me
and this whole wide world

let there be more light and love in this world
let everyone realize the beauty of love
there is nothing more beautiful in this world than love
let's love one another, always
and be one with ourselves and everything

Lack of Happiness

This lack of happiness hurts.
Paranoia with it doesn't help.Maybe I should try having lactase enzyme with the heavily fermented yoghurt.
I hate my life.

Burning

It's like being burned by every thought
better to not exist at all

P.S. thank you gluten!

depressed, sad and irritated

I feel very depressed, sad and irritated. Improperly fermented yoghurt doesn't help with my mental health. It might even contribute to the mess, thanks to stupid IBS.

I should be more careful in having only heavily fermented yoghurt (48 hours). Maybe that will help; otherwise, I will have to resort to lactase enzymes. I don't wanna try gluten again. It's a different mess altogether. If all of this doesn't work, I will have to go on meds again. Even if it's harsh, it seems better than this. At least, I could work.

24 hour fermented yoghurt

 For some reason I don't know, even 24 hour fermented yogurt is not sufficient to make me happy. Without happiness I feel sad. No motivation to work. Hopeless.

Heavily Fermented Yoghurt

I have to write about what helps me. Otherwise, it would not be fair to me or others. Perhaps it can help others as well. Those who have struggles with their mental health and happiness.

I am not able to tolerate lightly fermented curd. Even a little thing impacts my ability to feel happiness. Gluten makes me a mess.

But what helps me is 48-hour fermented yogurt. It soothes me. My mind, body and soul. I crave it all the time. Hopefully, I will be able to drink it when I need it.

It's not a want, it's a necessity for happiness.

Maybe, finally, I have broken the depression code?

Why does it have to be this way?

I'm such a mess

Dream

We all dream of freedom and happiness
But sometimes it's quite hard to find both
Especially when we are missing one