Positively Suicidal

Sometimes I feel like complete in a weird sense of way. Like I have experienced everything in this world. That death would be perfection. But idk how to do it though. Or if I should act on it. Is it weird?

You

I miss the way we talked.

It was my little happiness.

At times all I wanted was to see you,

be around you and be with you.

I don't know how many times

I have lost track of time

just looking at the way you smile

You take me high and up above the clouds

Without you even knowing it

But it's okay.

I don't want you to be with me either.

Not now. Atleast.

Better stay away from me.

Like this.

For now atleast.

And maybe if things turn around,

give me a chance to get to know you.

My soul yearns for you.

And I know it shouldn't.

But that's the way it is.

Not always. But sometimes. Like that.

It's hard you know.

It's not fair. Not a bit.

But that's life.

So let's get with it.

Like that.

Stay happy.

Like that.

Miss you.

Wish it was all different

Wish it was different

All the people I have hurt

All the sins I have done

Yeah. I wish it was different.

O God. Give me strength in your love.

Make me a better person.

To fight against this evil

Till the last breath I breathe