Coming back to love

Back to love is always difficult.
Sometimes you wish you were always be able to love, and was in love.
Your heart breaks for all the love that you were not able to give.
All the happiness that you were not able to experience.
All the moments of joy that you have missed.
Yet, I have to keep love in my heart and hope for joyful moments.
I think that's hope in love.
It's redeeming. Cleans your heart.
Fills you with purpose and joy.
Makes you beautiful.

Don't give up

Don't give up no matter how much anxious you feel, desperate you feel, sick you feel.
You will find the answers soon and will feel alright soon.
Don't give up on it.

Whey

I feel so much calm after consuming isolated whey protein.
Is it the tryptophan getting absorbed?
Maybe I should continue the gluten free diet, and have whey protein when I can to feel happy and okay.
And my friend suggested meditation, I should try that too!

Test

I want this test to end in a good way

But this is harsh

Living without love

Letting go of everything

I wanna sink and end all of this

Leave this world so that I can fly

Or may this test end well

And make me feel light again

May it fill me with love again

So that I may breathe again

And live

I feel so sad, alone and broken