Lack of proof and the struggles

 Yesterday, I struggled to sleep at night since I had both coffee and didn't have enough yoghurt. When I felt chaotic I had some biscuits and I got to say I felt crazy the whole day today. I don't have any proof for this gluten thing though. Yet I feel sad and disgusted by myself and how I feel. I don't know what else I can do but to avoid gluten and try to be happy and content. I am angry and irritated.

Heavily Fermented Yoghurt

I have to write about what helps me. Otherwise, it would not be fair to me or others. Perhaps it can help others as well. Those who have struggles with their mental health and happiness.

I am not able to tolerate lightly fermented curd. Even a little thing impacts my ability to feel happiness. Gluten makes me a mess.

But what helps me is 48-hour fermented yogurt. It soothes me. My mind, body and soul. I crave it all the time. Hopefully, I will be able to drink it when I need it.

It's not a want, it's a necessity for happiness.

Maybe, finally, I have broken the depression code?

Tapering

A few of my closest friends had told me that I was different before, that I was calm and collected. They were curious about what happened to me. They couldn't grasp what happened to me. They still might think that I am creating all the fuss.

Now, I am trying to taper my medicine with a casein-free diet(dairy-free now, thinking of adding fermented whey liquid back later). Maybe casein was all there was to my mental health issues. Perhaps casein was the one causing all the inflammation in my body. Maybe once I stop casein, my mind and body can heal. Finally, I might be able to enjoy life more.

Questions Unanswered

We all have some questions that wanders in our thoughts. Questions without answers. May be some people hide it either for their good or for ours. Some questions never have sources. It comes from within.

Anyway, we have questions.  We search for the truth through out our life. Finally, we may or may not reach the truth. Everything is certain or simply the otherway . (Relative)

I wish all  my questions be answered soon. Please.