Dependence on Dairy

Even though I am severely lactose intolerant, I start feeling low once I don't consume enough dairy products. The irony of it all. I am running on lactose free milk for now. I need to make good yogurt at home which I can hopefully tolerate better.

I don't like Java

I should never have used Kotlin.

Confusing

I don't feel well.
Even with meds.
I feel broken.
I feel like I have never felt alright.
I don't know if I can have gluten or not.
I'm scared of gluten.
Lactose depresses me.
I need to learn and improve.
But I am scared of my mind too.

Not a Good Day

I'm severely depressed today

I had my own yoghurt yesterday

Nothing feels good today

I have ordered some lactase enzymes

I'll get it tomorrow

I'm too tired for any happiness or joy

I couldn't work today 

There was no hope

Why am I like this?

Tired of all this