Sleep and Never Wake Up

I don't know what's wrong with me

People may see me as ungrateful

My stomach burns

I don't know if it's gluten

I'm not able to tolerate lactose at all

How will I live or be happy? 

Only thing that sustains me is the medicine.

holding on

I didn't write anything till now since i was holding on to life barely especially in the mornings. 

I have restarted the medicines.

Stopped gluten a day back.

I don't know if it's the gluten or my situation that's giving me crippling anxiety.

I couldn't do anything but just hold on to my own dear life.

On bed. Just holding on.

Everyone supports me. And that gives me some hope even though I couldn't see.

Today morning it's a little better.

The weight has decreased. Not fully. But it's some hope for me.

I won't have gluten anymore.

Not because any tests are positive but because I want to breathe and live.