Aug 20, 2025

At this pace

At this pace, I won't survive longer
I simply can't
Depression is revealing itself
Together with all the emotional mess it can bring in
I truly hope this stops with me
I'm tired

Is it all my fault?
That I'm missing you
That I'm missing happiness
That I feel like I was always a mess
That I was never happy 
Even with you 
That I am blue
And cold like ice buried under

Why is it taking me places with you?
Why do I have to miss you?
Why do I have to miss all the happiness in this world?
Isn't it cruel?
Should I cry? 
And i know even that won't help
Not a bit
Not a tiny bit