Rough Sea

I feel like I am in rough sea at the moment.
I feel like my ship was late to completion.
And maybe I should have waited for sometime
before attempting and creating shipwrecks.

Now I have to decide, if i should sail on my own
or try to join other ships.
Getting into other ships is not easy either.
I have to learn new skills.
And I am trying to learn anyway.

I hope my mental health stays good enough
for me to try all of these at least.
It is sad. That I had to leave my previous ship.
But fate maybe. Or is it the helm?
I feel sad either way.